"Squirrels and birds sense your sadness, and call an important conference in a tall tree." ––Haffiz

thank god i’m not censored

Posted: July 7th, 2009 | Author: Cary | Filed under: poems | 5 Comments »

today is perfect
does that make sense?
that one day could be more perfect than another?
{i know, i know – there is no such thing as more perfect}
yesterday was perfect too
though if you’d asked
with that pitying look in your eye
i would have told you that the sky was too hot
my eyes were too itchy
time was running far too slow.
but none of that
is anything more
than that… you know?
and today really is perfect
and i’m just happy
that i thought
to notice it

5 Comments on “thank god i’m not censored”

  1. 1 larry miller said at 7:45 am on July 9th, 2009:

    just plain lovely

  2. 2 christine said at 5:46 am on July 10th, 2009:

    Ich würde so gerne wieder sagen können “Heute ist perfekt.”
    = I really would like to be able to say: “Today is perfect.” again.
    Sorry for my poor english- I just want you to let you know how deeply I’m stirred from your words and from the poetry in your blog.
    Hope you’ll have a lot of “perfect todays” in the future.
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  3. 3 admin said at 11:36 am on July 10th, 2009:

    Thank you Christine… I appreciate your very kind words.

    Happiness of course doesn’t happen overnight. It’s been nearly two years for me, so I’ve been through that terrible dark part, and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone… I remember it like it was yesterday, and it was a horrid place to be stuck.

    I of course don’t know about your past, but I do know that with time and hard work, grief passes on, and what you are left with is a fresh new life; a fresh new you.

    That’s impossible to see from the depths of despair, but when you finally see the light you will be so thankful that you stuck it out… Life moves wonderfully on. It’s up to us whether we move on with it or not. :)

    Wishing you the best,
    Cary

  4. 4 Floey said at 8:24 am on July 11th, 2009:

    After reading Christine’s comment, I had this thought: it seems like maybe the turning point between dark despair and the light of happiness is when you can begin to see that your cup is half full rather than half empty.

    I honor all the work you have done to get to this vista point.

  5. 5 christine said at 1:20 pm on July 11th, 2009:

    Thank you for answering my comment. It’s hard for my to imagine that somebody who doesn’t know me at all is spending time in order to answering me. But it feels so good- THANK YOU.
    To be honest: I don’t believe that I had to cope with such a big loss in my past like you did ( and you still have to stand it). In my case is it more a story of a lot of “smaller” losses and plenty of never ending failures. I should be embarrassed by mentioning my sadness here in this blog- especially after watching the pictures and reading about your story. And I really am embarrassed…-but even if I tell myself over and over again that there are many things to be thankful for, it doesn’t work out always…
    But I’ll keep trying to find the way back into the light or to see that the cup is half full (Thank you, Floey.) I have to stop being “paralysed” and I have to start living again…even though I don’t know how to do it…;-)…-perhaps writing these rows could be my little first step?!
    Hope you are enjoying your weekend!
    Warm regards,
    Chris

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