Sometimes it just hits me
Usually when I’m out and about. somewhere no one knows me. Like right now — sitting in a new and different cafe, surrounded by strangers… I look around and realize that no one here knows me. No one here knows my story — the way I held my dying wife in my arms and felt her life drain away. The way I lived through five years of love and agony. Pain and sweetness. Fear and hope and devastation and daydreams.
It’s kind of refreshing… At what point is your past just your past? At what point do you let go of your frightened and childlike identity? At what point do you turn off that sobbing voice in your head and start really living in the moment?
I guess it’s now… I guess it’s my choice… I guess I’d better choose.
Another truly inspiring post, C.
Hope you are having a nice evening.
I hear ya son,
A choice is necessary to move, forward or not.
as taken from the book - Who Moved My Cheese?, Movement in a new direction helps you find your new cheese. Noticing small changes early helps you adapt to the bigger changes that are to come. When you see that you can find and enjoy new cheese, you change course. MOM
Yup. Inspiring indeed.
Cary you are still going through a lot of pain and it takes some time to get through this, but life is for living and your Lori would want you to keep moving forward and find happiness again. No one can say when that moment will arrive only you will know dear. Allow yourself to keep going forward reaching for a new day filled with happy times again. The time will come when you’ll be ready to tell what you’ve gone through and it won’t hurt as much…..then you’ll know you are ready to move forward and have peace in your heart that says go for it. Arlene (AJ)
Yes, eventually you reach that point - look forwards or look back. I can certainly remember a critical watershed moment where the same thought appeared.
Still, I don’t think it’s a linear process, since in truth there were several, or many, of those moments. All added up, they made a big difference. But once the feeling is with you, the destination isn’t in doubt.