so tonight’s the big night…
while next week will officially mark the end of our 14-week Healing Through Grief & Loss workshop, TONIGHT we will actually be finishing up the painful exercise that has engulfed us for the last 13 weeks.
i have to admit to feeling quite nervous about the prospect of truly bearing my soul to my grief partner one final time.
it’s been a long and arduous road, and nobody who knows me can doubt the significant role this “process” has played in my healing… as was promised by the facilitators of our group so long ago, i am truly a different man coming out of the group than i was going in.
so much has been said, so many stones unturned, so many ugly paths tread… with each step my soul has become just a small bit cleaner, my heart just a little less raw.
tonight i get to say goodbye to my pain.
no, certainly not the end of my tears.
and not the end of all my fond memories of lori.
but the end of the suffering.
truth be told, for the last two weeks i have suffered very little. i am stunned by the effectiveness of this whole process, and saddened by the multitudes of heartbroken folks who will never read that book, let alone actually complete the exercises.
if they only knew that they could be free again.
i don’t know how else to put it.
so tonight i read my final Completion Letter––the apologies, the forgiveness, all the emotional statements that were left so tragically unsaid.
and next week, we celebrate with a potluck, and gather together one last time to remember how far we’ve come.
i’m bone-tired from the process, but just waking up to my life again.
thanks for standing behind me, everyone. your comments and well-wishes have meant the world to me.
bless you,
cary
It’s so wonderful to see your seed, that you planted such a short time ago, blossom - and in such perfect timing with spring (in our spot on the planet). But then again, you have a lovely forest that you tend every day called Cary - so the blossoming only seems natural. Keep being happy!
be well, chenee
Cary from the beginning of your pain to now, can see a great improvement to finding some peace in your heart, so glad you went and stuck it out. Know as hard as it was it’s become a turning point in the right direction in your life and you’ve earned it. Know Lori is watching over you and proud of you. You went through so much and know you were glad you could be there and wouldn’t change that, but now is your time to go forward. Just keep taking it one day at a time dear. It’s nice reading that you are starting to wake up to life again, it’s what all of use want for you. Bless you. Arlene (AJ)
Welcome to the first day of the rest of your life … a life whose understanding of the world is defined by your history, but whose impact on and appreciation of the future world knows no limit but your own expectations. Be free, and carry the strength and love of your angel with you … for are we not all one in spirit if not experience? All who spread the Light, or attempt to capture it on digital media.
Peace.
Bowing with hands together in prayer and nodding head gently “I like what you like”.
May peace be with you. Love, MOM
You are amazing Cary. Absolutely amazing. -a
Thank you so much for sharing this here. i would really love to do that course as well.