ya’ know it’s funny. the last few weeks have been particularly hard on me emotionally… i’ve been spending huge amounts of time alone, missing my friends like nobody’s business, and getting some pretty terrible cabin fever to boot.

but as always seems to be the case in my life, there appears to have been a silver lining hiding under the scary exterior of those thunderclouds i was trying to outrun––they’ve lead me to re-discover two of my favorite past-times: poetry, and photography.

and that has lead me to re-discover a number of my own traits which had gone strangely AWOL since lori passed away: stuff like self-confidence, self-reliance, self-preservation (good lord i missed that one,) and a general passion for life.

you can’t imagine how good it is to feel those things again––i didn’t even know i had lost them until the trials of real life reared up and nearly managed to bite my head off.

and while not every day is perfect and happy and bright, i’m truly beginning to feel like my old self again. as you may have noticed, i’m blogging again, and that’s something i didn’t even realize i was missing… until i noticed how excited i was to have found it again.

anyway, i just got back from another lovely weekend in Alameda, and while i took a ton of new photos, the one pictured here is pretty much my favorite.

so simple. so pure. it was just one of those perfect creative moments when an idea crystalizes in your head, you see it in your mind’s eye, and you just grab it… and lo and behold, it actually comes out exactly the way you imagined it….

honestly, that doesn’t happen very often.

it’s nice to know there’s a still a bit of magic left in my life  :0)